D: So! what have you been doing these days?
(A pause. At a loss of words to describe the nothingness so full of somethingness)
(A surprised look on D's face. No wonder because I'm surprised too, just hoping he wouldn't ask for an explanation-How could I possibly explain?)
D: So... what had you been doing before that?
Me(immediately with a beaming look): Dying!
(An incredulous look on D's face and he lets me be probably thinking I've gone mad; not that he wasn't suspicious anyway. Phew! At least he spared me from further questions thus sparing himself from a needlessly long incoherent attempt at an answer. God bless him with wondrous happenings on Earth!)
And I continue pondering over the hidden truth of these simple words that escaped from the knot of everythingness that surprisingly very succinctly explained the inexplicable situation!
Only today, a few moments ago did I recall the above magical happening;
After a failed (not really else how'd I have known?) sibling tete-a-tete attempt (mind you just an attempt) left me with the residues of:
Anxiety troubling me (Really this one is so pointless that it can be killed just by the question Now what?)
Trying-too-hard draining me (whoever said "try try until you succeed" never knew the idea of Letting Be)
Explaining my case losing me (The most tiring of all, easily killed by the question- So What?)
I plainly see the symptoms of dying that ATE up the living!
NOW I think I know what it means to be actually:
Nothing to Prove.